alert anyway - and now more so.
awake, alive, anew, alas. alas as beginning to an unsung mantra.
auspiciously the beauty surrounds me during my infrequent journeys to your soul.
have i forgotten to look and memorize your face,
an intention i can only pretend to recognize.
a faceted diamond of brilliance upon your lips. awaiting the signal.
to speak, to hum, to radiate.
i see the ray, light trying to enter into your features,
i see your taut gaze tightening. we are lost together.
Today, as many have been, I am found. There really is only one meaning. I find one of my little white dogs sprawled out atop the massage table. Queen Lounger. There is a big slouchy pillow between her and the black shiny surface of the table; soft on semi-soft. Layers of doggy delight. I look and know there must be some dreams going on over there about 10 feet away from me, I try anthropomorphicizing, what might I dream if I am a dog? Her smile, her wiggle, it must mean what it means when I smile and wiggle. And if I do those same things, there are so many hundreds of meanings I can assign to their actions. Some of the human meanings must coincide with the canid meanings, they must, they do!! Anyway, it isn’t important now to list them, any of them; they are all just happening now to some creature who you will probably never meet. And she is so cute!!! And smells good too.
I have some stories about some human friends building up. There have been conversations, long and deep, recently. Paths and life’s choices are chanted to me over and over again. I hope to write some down.
And Mankle continues her arduous ascent into being healed.